I look older than my age and it upsets me

 

I was never afraid of death, but I was always afraid of old age. And now I look in the mirror and realize that I am old. I can't calmly look at my photos, I get upset. I have flews, wrinkles under the eyes, one eyelid overhangs, there are age spots. I try to fight this, I spend most of my salary on expensive cosmetics. I try to eat lots of greens and fish, but nothing helps. I paint, but I still look five years older. It's in my genes to look older. I have an older sister, she also looks much older, but she does not worry about this, and I suffer. I tried not to pay attention to how I look (I still can't see myself from the outside), but as soon as I see my reflection in the mirror, depression rolls in with even greater force. I dream of plastic, but the prices for it at my salary are simply cosmic.